Dear Universe…

“Dear Universe…
I haven’t always been as grateful as I could have been… You know, …trauma-based stories around money from early childhood imprinting, conflicting my creative expressions and desires to share ME with others and that “having to have” a monetary value.

This meant when being so young, me “charging” people money equating to hurting people…

I know not healthy trauma imprinting to carry around, but that is what money seemed to be doing to my mother feverishly counting back and double-checking every receipt and bill…

Of course, this has kept shut down my innate ability to feel good about receiving value for expressing my creative beingness for many years…

Universe, you know it, you have been witnessing me all this time…

On a positive (and equally trauma-based level) I have excelled (of course) at giving money, showing up for others (to offset their cost of money), and going out of my way to support anyone close (preferably for free so it won’t hurt them)…

(and as you know) … It took me 38 years of you persistently showing up with MIRACLES, for me to be able to untangle the narratives that have construed such a seemingly difficult entry-int-this-world-tale truly filled with a crazy series of epic hero journeys full of opportunity again and again to start recognising the patterns…

After finally finding and now retrieving this little Prince part of myself from the hell loop of pain, shame, guilt, and blame, where little Kasper-me is selling his first Kingly painting to his mom …

Yes, he was simply experimenting with the fantasy of “doing business” in the World of Man and as any child without a concept for “real” money he, due to his pre-deposition to money from his time in the womb, he got stuck in time, fearing to ever sell his creative essence for money ever, I mean NEVER, again…

Oh, how this narrative showed up throughout my Life just about everywhere… From not wanting to finish college because I’d be making “real” money because that meant revisiting hell aka retriggering pain… to building my first website for someone for “just money”… I was proud of doing everything pro-deo and for the betterment of good in the world.. not selling boat trips and luxury tours!

Kasper never forgave me for dragging me through that seemingly horror scene of having my Will removed and still having to deliver because I “got paid”…

That was by far one of the most gutwrenching experience of a lifetime… which then repeated itself 10 years later finally (to form a pattern) when I had to drag and somehow convince myself (or better put, Kasper) to “charge” for my most amazing, awe-inspiring Course in Syntropy…

Kasper was unbeknownst to myself in rage…then I had to give the course… and as soon as it was done, “I” swore I’d never do that again… just like the website… just like King Kaspers very first painting he sold to his mom with pre-existing pain that he was hurting her with that…

Yes, dear Universe… disassociation is real… I get it now, and I should have been way more curious and willing to access the underlying narratives by being willing to come into awareness where the origin of my resentment and emotional disharmony could be found in memories of my formative years… Yes…. Call me a slow learner…πŸ‘‰πŸ‘‰

πŸ‘‰πŸ‘‰ We now sold our first painting to our most wealthy and healthy and happiest of moms for 10,000 Guilders!!! …and we worked through the radical recalibration that this process or limbic imprint recoding caused inside our shared brain…

Yes, a somewhat painful reorganizing of brain cells as core beliefs got re-written in a fashion that allows Kasper and me to start to feel really good about receiving money for our efforts and contributions to other people’s lives in which we show up powerfully and with positive impact!!

Yes, dear Universe you got that right!

We now finally know from a harmonized emotional place on every cell of our being that the energetic sense of Love benefits flowing both ways for it to be Love!

and

that equal exchange for our awesomeness is relevant for that Love to be able to flow…

We now get it that being open to receiving the gifting of money or people paying with money is enabling others in their ability to reciprocate and feel good about the exchange…

Universe, I just want to say sorry that it took so long to get your unconditional messages and opportunities to look at this within.

And thank you for sending those angels through that weren’t playing into my humandamage, but went right over the top of it all and financially sustained me in times when Kasper would almost run me dry with his pain, fear and shame….

The truth is, he just wanted to be found and his unnatural narratives around money were the only story he had to get my attention with…

up until now..

oh, what a ride…

Dear Universe, I just want to say: “we get it now!” and we wholly want to enable others to shower us with their Love! Abundance! Gifts! Gratitude! … by no longer avoiding or resisting it..

Yay to healing unconscious early childhood wounds through the Re-membering Process

and

a *double yay* to entering the world of symbiotic exchange…

People of the World:

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We, me and King Kasper, welcome your gifts of appreciation to feed our addiction to coconuts!! Because we deserve it aaaaaand we are awesome! But we only feel amazing do when it feels truly good, relevant, right and YAY to you too..

πŸ₯³πŸ‘‘πŸ¦šβœŠπŸ’«πŸ™

Today I celebrate the resolving of a Story long in the making and slow to repeat itself… a story of my humandamage…which then leads to the Gift of Trauma once properly resolved.

If you want to learn more about the Re-Membering Process called the Self Memory Retrieval Technique. You can connect in here as a first exploration: https://souvereignsharing.net/course-in-syntropy-self-memory-retrieval-technique/

This is part of the updated, edited, and upgraded, but not yet activated Course in Syntropy. If you want to receive or do a repeat, just send me an email with the subject heading: Syntropy please

In grace and lovingkindness,

King Kasper & Souvereign Ahnon Aardema

and yes you can buy us a coconut here to celebrate our breakthrough… so much goodness is to come from this !!

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