Roots to Freedom

Freedom is a sound mind, a pure mind. A mind free of trauma, free of judging others, blaming others, complaining about others. A mind free of worry, free of pettiness, free of comparing this to that. A mind that is in acceptance of the world around it, not afraid of it, fearlessly willing to engage with it.

For all of my life my cells have had an obsession with freedom. An unnatural drive to be free, away from whatever hasn’t felt free.

I am now realising that after all these years of searching and exploring, I am experiencing feelings of what freedom truly is, and with that, what freedom isn’t. What it has never been. I can sense how lost I’ve been searching for freedom, its meaning, its place, its function.

In awe and wonder I am now sensing all that freedom is in its majesty and supreme sovereignty, pure purity, a lightness full of simplicity. An effortless beingness. I feel in awe of its potential, its reach, its presence, its absolute reign. And all I have to do is surrender to it.

As I write this I feel that nothing I thought I knew about freedom is even remotely true. I question the deeper function of my magnetic attraction to freedom, and come into awareness of what freedom actually is.

It seems that instead of me reclaiming freedom, freedom is somehow begetting me. In my growing obsession of reclaiming freedom, freedom has instead slowly started consuming me. If freedom is what I seek, has freedom actually been seeking me, because it is my nature?

I realise “I” can’t “have” freedom. That is an oxymoron, part of the endless senselessness the English language is inherently filled with, the international language of commerce and trade, built to articulate rights and ownership through contracts.

I feel it now. Freedom can only have me. So who then is me? What is my nature, and does it naturally want to feel free?

Freedom is the opposite of everything I have been taught, everything I have sought, in my quest to reclaim it. I sense now that freedom simply “is,” and it actually has no real name. That once felt and tasted from within the cells, it simply needed to be found, rediscovered, remembered, the true nature simply to be felt.

The self-sovereign will that is me, inherently, innately, is already free. I can’t own “my own freedom,” but it can only become of me. It isn’t even something I can go and find, or something I can be shown. Freedom can only reclaim more of me. So freedom “is.” It is the silence, the stillness, the serenity, free from urges, needs, labels, or ideas. Freedom doesn’t need a sound. It is itself, complete in and of itself, self-sovereign.

Exploring Syntropy Within the Human Ecosystem

I have questioned my human nature, my original state, my internal felt-based foundation, and at the core of being human, my natural innate self-knowing: a spirit that is free, living within a body over which no one has authority to trespass or give orders, as all navigation of this being is naturally governed by my own free will.

Remembering the energetic template and the underlying strategy of life within me allowed me to sense how this expresses itself from within. I carry an innate, feeling-based knowing that I am self-sovereign, and with that, free, as I naturally have freedom of choice in whatever decision I make for my own navigation. So what is “freedom,” and am I actually living in that state of being, and if not, why, if this is my true nature to feel so?

freedom (n.)

Old English freodom, “power of self-determination, state of free will; emancipation from slavery, deliverance,” from free (adj.) + -dom.

Two words with two meanings combined into one, like king-dom, the domain of the king, and wis-dom, the domain of the wise.

free (adj.)

Old English freo, “exempt from bondage; acting of one’s own will,” also “noble; joyful,” from Proto-Germanic *frija-, “beloved; not in bondage,” from PIE *priy-a-, “dear, beloved,” from root *pri-, “to love.” “Free,” in the primary Germanic sense, seems to have meant “beloved, friend, to love,” the same root that gives Old Norse Frigg, “wife of Odin,” literally “beloved” or “loving.”

So to be free has to do with the will, and is intimately linked to love and feeling at peace. When we are in the feeling-based state of feeling beloved, an internal state, not caused by another (which would be loved-by-someone), be-loved is a self-attained, innate state that many children still carry so innocently for themselves when young. They choose healthy, loving actions for themselves, such as picking flowers, smelling them, and soaking up the love that wells up from within. I have explored for many years now what shut down this innate knowing, as I learned I wasn’t feeling free, beloved by myself, or sovereign.

doom (n.)

Active as a suffix in Old English, as in freodom, wisdom, kingdom. Old English dom, “law, judgment,” from Proto-Germanic *domaz, from the PIE root *dhe-, “to set, place, put, do.”

“Let thy kingdom come” refers to the spiritual reign of God. Reign, from Old French reigne, “kingdom, land, country,” from Latin regnum, related to regere, “to rule, to direct, keep straight, guide.” Domain, from Old French demaine, “lord’s estate,” from Latin dominium, “property, dominion,” from dominus, “lord, master, owner,” from domus, “house.”

Free-dom: the estate of the beloved. Freedom as a state of being is to be in love, beloved, to feel love freely, as life, uninhibited, free of fear or perceived domination by “other,” being at peace, meaning not being preoccupied in the thoughts with “other.”

Remembering what human nature is from within has allowed me to question not just why I wasn’t feeling free, but has profoundly allowed me to come into awareness that this strategy, our blueprint, is working on becoming this again, because as in all of life, each species in the ecosystem has a function, but more so, a unique talent, a unique gift to deliver. I have found that our unique human talents are held from within our soul’s purpose, as it has a purpose and “mission” to accomplish. Our entire human body, all our thoughts and faculties of feeling, are continuously working towards resolving our unresolved emotional imprints, as these sit, unresolved, in the way of our spirit or soul reaching what it came here to do, to express and experience for its own growth in its own succession.

I have found some revelatory elements, emotional and neurochemical processes, through which my nature, my innate freedom and sovereignty, has been working to reclaim me, and all the dismembered aspects of my being.

I have remembered that this strategy within all humans is one of love, but that it takes will to come back into the swing seat of our own lives, to truly return to freedom, peace, and sovereignty.

In love and relation to life,

Souvereign