Return of Sophia is the name of this pillar, and for me it is the name of what happened when I went within. Sophia is a word sound that in its essence means wisdom, and through the study of Syntropy I came to see that the wisdom the word names is the same wisdom that sits in a seed, which carries the whole tree as knowing long before a single leaf shows and which waits in the subsoil for the season that calls it up. What the old texts called Sophia and placed outside of us as a goddess, and what the translators later shrank into the small word wisdom, is the knowing in your own cells that was there before anyone taught you anything, and so I tell you plainly. Here’s a little reveal. Sophia is not somebody outside of you. Oh yes, she is wise, and she can give you access to wondrous worlds of navigating and knowing how to navigate, and she is in you.

For me the way to her ran through disappointment, and what a purposeful function that was. I had been into the word sound sovereignty for about ten years, organising meetings and attending talks, and what I found there was a whole bunch of hurt men talking about parking fines and strawman language, and the freedom I was looking for, the one from within, was waiting for me further on. So I went deep down the mystical, Gnostic, Catharian lines, the Magdalene lineage and what I call the feminine wisdom keeping, Sophianic wisdom, and because I was raised in a Pentecostal church mentality it took the Nag Hammadi writings and the Gospel of Thomas before I really came home, and I came to Mary Magdalene’s beautiful journey, which the biblical form we were handed had veiled and set aside. Finally my cells had something to resonate with, and I found so much relief and so much homecoming in these love-filled wisdom teachings of Sophia, told in The Return to Sophia in her voice and mine. Seeing that those peoples had a perspective gave me permission to have one, and from that distance from the world of men I was raised in I went within, I returned to the womb and I got connected with Sophia, the intrinsic wisdom that is a field of consciousness available to us to relate with, to have as our teacher, mother, sister, lover, nurturer and fierce bearer of truth.

I’ve been one of those men that didn’t even know what feelings were, so this took its time, and what the years taught me is that she arrives together with the will. When we took our first breath, our cord got cut, and in that entry into the world of men a great deal of will got lost, so the work of restoring wholeness from within is a conscious journeying into the internal landscape to retrieve will as an aspect of self, and will also can be called Sophia. She is the part of you that knows, and she knows, the part of self knows, and the true feminine is a deep love that is also ruthless, really truthful, which is why her return in you asks for your willingness ahead of anything else. Her returning, and us reuniting, can only happen within each individual, and so it is a very personal journey back home, the same homecoming the Grandmothers of the Wananga of Love raised me into in their mind song, in their hearts and in their dreaming.

Do you feel held, under everything? Do you feel a knowing in you that is older than what you were taught? Do you feel her when the room goes quiet? Do you feel willing to speak to her of her existence?

Speak to her, then, and she may have a giggle and say, this is so funny, and she may say, well, that’s the secret, because she in you knows what her name is in relationship to Sophia, and your relationship to her is yours alone, with a name and a sound of its own. Sophia returns the moment you remember her, because the remembering is her.

What she has said to me over the years I set down as it came, with every turn of phrase she gave it, and two sharings open this pillar. The Return to Sophia gathers her voice under the many names she has moved through, my return to her and her return to me, the temple, the moon, the church of love within, and it is where the line at the top of this page was spoken. Sophia on Returning to Syntropy came through whole in one sitting and speaks to readiness and to how all of Life makes use of every function it is given, the banana tree included, which is her way of saying what I have found in ten years of sessions, that the cells return to wholeness the moment they are permitted to. She runs as a thread through the pillars of her Temple, and here she speaks for herself.