Forgiveness was the word I reached for first, and what I kept finding in sessions and in myself is that if we practice forgiveness alone, we are practicing a very advanced form of coping, and if we’re not resolving, we’re coping. The question I ask now sits further back than forgiveness ever reached, and I let it stand in the room on its own.

Do you feel willing to accept that what happened happened?

That is the absolute core of trauma, an unwillingness to accept what happened, and the moment a part of you answers yes, something in the cells can finally stop bracing and start resolving, because forgiveness is really the act of accepting that what happened happened. And if the answer is no, that’s beautiful too, because it means there is a deeper story that still wants to be expressed, and we can thank that part for saying so.

You make a cut on your skin and it covers itself back up, it heals, it is self-healing, and that is the picture I keep coming back to, since our entire Syntropic nature is for wholeness. The body already knows how to heal, and the same intelligence runs the internal landscape. What happened for so many of the people I sit with, and for me, is that we were happy, happy, happy, happy, and then an imprint happened, and after that we were impacted, impacted, impacted, and the part of self that was there when it happened stayed there, still the age it was, with the walls of the story closed around it. That original innocence stays trapped in many of the people I sit with. The reaction you feel today, the bracing, the flare, the sudden tiredness, performs a function with purpose, and its function is to point back at the one who is still waiting, so I question the function before I do anything else. Where the first imprints are laid down, in the womb and at birth, is the ground of the Sacred Birth & Conscious Parenting pillar, and the two pillars read each other.

In the heart navigation circles I sometimes set out two chairs, one for shame and one for the absence of presence of love, and I invite whoever recognises a little version of themselves in either story to let that one take a seat, because these little beings are part and parcel of conversation after conversation, and yet they rarely receive a proper seat at the circle. This is the part of self that didn’t get love, the part of self that wasn’t seen, the part of self that when it reached out found no one there. Once it is seated the work is gentle and it is slow, and the parts come home in their own time, since the part of self knows, and what it knows is grassy fields and beautiful sunsets and blue skies and togetherness, which is where it is willing to be walked back to. The writings that go deeper into this sit here in the pillar as well, Teachings of Syntropy in Healing on Syntropy as the logic the body already heals by, Why Do We Dismember? on the moment a self divides and what calls it home, and Self and Cell Healing on how the cells hold the memory and how they speak.

The writings of this pillar have already grown into their own books, the Map of the Return, three journeys you can download, walk at your own pace and give onward, where Come and Find Me opens the way to the part that has been waiting, Meet Me There takes you by the five breaths into the internal landscape and its legend, and Bring Me Home is the workbook for healing the five primary imprints door by door.

Your cells communicate in the language of images, and a dream is one of the forms that communication takes, so when a part of you is ready to be found it very often speaks first at night. Dream Interpretation is a living doorway into this pillar, as a written interpretation you receive by email, a live session one to one, or dreams tracked as a sequence through the eight to twelve weeks of the Syntropic Embodiment Journey.