Re-Membering the Parts of Self

What is traditionally called dissociation I call dis-membering, and seen through Syntropy applied to our human ecology the reason for it stays simple, since your body arrived anticipating a natural order, and wherever Life handed it something else, an imprint marks the place. So the questions that open this work are plain ones. Were you born gently, by a lotus birth or a natural, peaceful one, into a womb that was clean and nourishing to grow in? Were your mother’s or your father’s hands the very first touch your body met? Were you held to the breast, sung your own soul song through pregnancy and birth and your early years, and followed, seen, celebrated and praised in your first explorations of Life on this earth? Were you kept safe by your own people, held close by them all through your life, respected in body, heart and mind at every age, and was your Will checked in with in every shared navigation? In ten years of sitting with people these are the places where the natural order most often gave way.

Your body reports a dis-membered part in plain language, daily, and the cells give us little stepping stones that get us closer to what the sound of this part really is. These ten come up most.

Dis-membering is inborn body wisdom, a Life strategy your body holds in reserve to keep every biological process running through an experience carrying more emotional intensity than the system can meet whole, and so a part of self steps aside and the rest of you keeps walking. That part carries the story away with it, along with the energy, the gift and the voice that belonged to you at that age, which is why a part returning arrives as capacity returning, and why I came to see that the function of memory is to remember those dismembered aspects of self.

On the farm I learned that the root and the origin of a disease in the leaves sits in the soil, and that we will not find the root cause of that in the canopy, since where we find it is in the microbiological structure of the subsoil, the leaf showing the symptom and the soil holding the cause, and there are locked-up nutrients in many of us still that benefit being freed up. A reaction in your life today is the leaf. It performs a function with purpose, the way everything alive does, and the whole art of this work is to question the function, because the leaf will tell you exactly where to dig.

Syntropic Self/Cell Healing is the name I gave this field of wisdom when I first wrote it down, and the whole of it rests on one observation, which is that because everything in Life performs a function with purpose, our cells, thoughts and feelings included, we are able on a daily basis to commune with messages from the internal landscape, and every one of them relates back to an aspect of self that dis-membered.

The Will comes first, because the Will is the spoken instruction, our proclamation of what the wholeness of self is willing into motion, and the cells can only do what they are permitted to do, which until that order is given is emotionally reacting. So we restore and re-member our Will, which carries the primary birth violation itself, and retrain it as the original compass for our feeling-based navigation, and we recultivate a will-full curiosity to inquire within around what the cells are communing to the awareness of Self. The Syntropic lens, nature’s lens, is what lets us navigate the breadth of it, since that lens reads the Life strategies of what our cells and the dis-membered aspects of self are wanting to accomplish, and it reads them with curiosity, which is what our willingness does, since it dissolves our judgement and opens us up.

c. 1200, remedie, “means of counteracting sin or evil of any kind; cure for a vice or temptation;” late 14c., “a cure for a disease or disorder, medicine or process which restores health;” from Anglo-French remedie, Old French remede “remedy, cure” (12c., Modern French remède) and directly from Latin remedium “a cure, remedy, medicine, antidote, that which restores health,” from re-, here perhaps an intensive prefix (or perhaps literally, “again”), + mederi “to heal” (from PIE root *med- “take appropriate measures”). Figurative use is from c. 1300. The meaning “legal redress; means for obtaining justice, redress, or compensation through a court” is by mid-15c.

From the Online Etymology Dictionary

Every one of those meanings lands on what the inner remedy does, as it heals again and redresses the injustice and cures the disorder, and the oldest of them is the one I hold closest, that which restores. There’s nothing to reclaim. There’s only something to return to, which for me is our innate human nature, and the part of you that stepped aside is carrying a piece of it.

Through the practice of using our Will to will access to long-stored memories and unresolved emotional imprinting, we commune directly with the wisdom of our cells, and in this process we pay close attention with open willful curiosity while our cells guide us, bringing up the neurochemical stepping stones that lead us to the primary imprint. Access comes easily because you are willing, and willingness is the whole key, which your body answers with the ways and means most optimal for you to see what moves beneath the surface. The self says, ah, finally, somebody is willing. Somebody just gave the order.

Your will is a powerful tool for your navigation to dissolve walls of what is called amnesia, and there’s an intrinsic surrender that comes with being willing, because you declare your willingness and then you surrender so that you can indeed receive what the cells are saying. So underneath every session sits one simple question. Are you willing to come into awareness?

The return to wholeness always follows the same pattern, whichever part is met, and I give it here whole so that you know the road before we walk it, since in my experience the explanation belongs before the journey and the journey then needs very few words. We enter from inside the sacred space of the heart, a little ball of light carrying your presence down through the throat and the chest and in through the wall of the heart, the route the territory page walks in full, and from there the cells’ most recent emotional reaction becomes the thread, the stepping stone the cells have laid down for exactly this.

The retrieval itself plays like a little movie, and I want you to just watch it, witnessing what is there from where you stand, and then to ask the part what its story is and what it still wants to share, and to listen for what it never got to hear and never got to receive. Then we thank it, and we thank it in earnest, because these parts have carved out for you awareness, insight and a razor sharp bullshit barometer, and the parts of self that I in the beginning shamed most kept me safe the longest in the world of men.

She has a name, a sound that belongs to her, and that one sound links to the whole imprint and every memory associated with it, the same story expressing itself through different people in different places across a life, all of it seen through the one lens the original imprint installed. You can arrive knowing nothing about who it is, because your cells know, and the name may arrive late or arrive as a stepping stone that makes sense later. Then I ask the part, on your behalf, whether it wants to keep doing it like this, and I offer it another way.

Then comes the movement I hold as the heart of it. In the room of the memory we set two chairs, one for the part and one for the one who should have been there, and we speak aloud what should have been said, in the first person of the one who failed, with the apology and the love and the please forgive us inside it, so that the failure of the third party becomes fore-given and the part is returned to before the imprint was given. And then I ask the question that carries the whole method.

Do you feel willing to accept that what happened happened?

If the answer is yes, the walls of that chamber fall away and we are standing in an open field of grass, and the story gets rescripted and envisioned the way the Self wants it remembered and stored, replayed a few times over, because the cells are wired for this Syntropic way of resolving and rescripting trauma so that the treasures can finally be felt, held and put to good use. If the answer is no, that’s beautiful too, because that means that there’s a deeper story that really still wants to be expressed, and we thank the part for saying no and go there first. The unresolved will remain unresolved until it’s properly resolved.

Reintegration belongs to the will of the part of self, and it asks for reverence and deep caring unconditional love. Some parts come home at once, the little version of you becoming light and merging into the fullness of the whole body self, or the sun covering you both as you walk into the sunset together, and whatever the picture of the reintegration is, it is perfect, replayed a few times so that the old phantom rewires into the free flow of being home and whole around that imprint. Other parts hold a station as gatekeepers or key keepers, since some of these parts of ourselves are very significant stepping stones or key keepers to other parts of our lost memory, and knowing it, they will say so, because all these parts have their own will and own volition.

A part that declines is doing its job, and the order of operations stays the same, which is to see through the lens of Syntropy, re-invert the story of dysfunction, trace the essence to its root in the five primary imprints, get the name, and move toward reintegration in its own time. In the weeks afterwards we are gentle on the cells and keep life spacious, with lush naps and walks in nature and whatever was asked of us in the process, so that the neurochemistry completes its rewiring.

Knowing how to navigate the internal landscape, built on our human nature’s own design, gives us great advantages.

I go there in our session with people, into the subconscious mind, and we do the retrieval work together. I guide them, they heal.

Together we journey through the internal landscape, following the cells’ recent emotional reactions back to the part of self they belong to, and the journey unfolds intuitively guided, visualised through active imagination that you will into being. These inner journeys stay guarded and safe as we follow the Life strategies of Syntropy, and a master navigator knows how to invert the five primary imprints and the false programs of death, trust and betrayal, which unlocks the mysteries held behind the pain narratives within. Navigating everything through the lens of Syntropy, I relate with any form of dark energy by meeting it full of love, after the function has been questioned and the wounded part brought out of its story, trusting full healing and transformation to arrive at its own pace, and I have trained in this master navigation to find the ones left behind.

This knowledge was kept in many of the old cultures, where the internal journey ran with the support of a shaman or with the help of the younglings who kept their sovereignty, the wholeness of their Will and therefore their wholeness of soul, since those cultures understood the archetypal nature of human consciousness within the patterns of creation. The Syntropic nature of our human ecology shows what follows from that, which is that a person restored in their own wholeness is re-enabled as a master navigator, able to help others re-member and restore their own, which is the destination I hold for every person I walk with.

During the re-membering phase the energy that stayed behind and the gifts that stayed folded become expressible again, and patterns of suffering settle once their function completes. In the weeks after a part comes home people tell me what they notice, and since every body moves at its own pace I hold these as witnessing gathered over ten years of sessions, which is that they feel alleviated and freed and they sleep deeper and dream richer, and there is more energy in the cells and a warmer self-responsibility and more room to create and experience joy, and changes in the body they notice, sometimes soon after a session, and new ideas and visions for their life, and the brain running its original patterning again, which shows in the regular arrival of yay, and then new Life situations and opportunities for growth start arriving, the way Life fills any gap the moment one is made.

The part itself tends to say it most simply, and I have heard a version of it in many voices, which goes something like thank you for finding me, wow, now I can finally properly process all of this.

Re-membering lives at the deepest layer of the healing work, and there are a few ways in. Many begin with a Dream Interpretation, the first small yes, where your cells hand you an image and we read it together. The retrieval work runs in full, week by week, through the Syntropic Embodiment Journey over eight to twelve weeks, and when you feel the yay for that, begin a journey by telling me a little about where you are at, since a first conversation is freely given and I read every message myself. If a plain hello is the first step that feels right, that door is open too.

When you want to see the whole weave written out, story by story, the Seven Pillars hold it, and the writings that grew from this work gather in the Healing pillar. All of it is here so that the part that stepped aside gets found, so that the gift it carried comes back into your hands, and so that you become, in your own time, a master navigator of your own internal landscape.

In grace,
Souvereign